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Happy anniversary!!

Journal Entry: Wed Feb 25, 2009, 2:11 PM

2 years today!

Today is a very special day for me, It’s me and my loves 2 years anniversary! I can’t believe it’s been two years. Two years and I love him even more everyday. Words cant explain how I feel now when he is miles away from me, its hard, it really is, I just want to hold him, so he can feel how much I care, how much I cherish what we have. He is such a strong person, he’s strength is so hard to find. The way he touched my heart and soul is still a mystery. Thank you for being so kind and strong!

I love his incredible intellect, his creativeness, the sound of his breathing when he is asleep, his voice which flows to my heart, the way he holds my hands, the way he never gives up on me, the way he treasure the gifts and memories I give him. The feeling he gives me everyday, that he is by my side no matter what. He makes me feel so beautiful. He loves me unconditionally! He makes me want to be a better person everyday!

Dedicated to my love!

I dedicate this poem to you, the love of my life, my best friend, my all. I love you Nima,with all my heart!

He is beautiful, so very beautiful
Just like a winter's shining landscape,
As delicate as the petals of a daisy,
And as freely as the eagle soaring against the blue

His eyes are as mysterious as the calm sea
Everything about him is so very precious,
More precious than all the gems in the world
His soul is the essence of the sky and earth,
His feelings are a volcano that is yet to explode
His smile is the smile of lost innocence.

Pain vibrates deep inside of his gentle heart.
A lock shuts in the disturbed thoughts of his mind,
A mind with as many roads as the world has.
I look at him and I see a pure truth,
Like looking at a clear night sky,
Millions of stars twinkle within him.

He is beauty as I defined it,
He is perfect, his imperfections make him so.
He is my best friend, and I love him,
I love him although, not because.

And I would give up all the things which I think are pretty
If only I can hold his beauty within me,
For he is everything in this world,
And I have found a world in him.

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Breakdown

Journal Entry: Thu Feb 12, 2009, 9:38 AM

Incomplete

I have been feeling more tiered and exhausted these days. I just feel very empty, like something is missing, its like a puzzle missing some pieces. I just feel stuck and feel like there is not much I can do. Do you ever feel like that? I look back at a couple of years ago, the dreams and hopes I used to have and sometimes feel like a failure.

what I've learned is that things don't always turn out the way you want, most of the time it doesn't actually. But when I really think about this,I don't consider myself as a failure,because I know how much I'm capable of, and what I can do, and that's a lot. What I can do is to keep fighting and trying to stay strong, there is not much more I can do. Sometimes when I get really scared I forget that the greatest rewards come from doing the things that scare you the most.

I know everyone feels lost and cunfused sometimes, you just want to find your way again, your way home, whatever home means to you. For some people home means your family, for other its the arms of someone special you love. Please remember:

"when you find yourself lost in the darkness and despair, remember it's only in the black of night you see the stars. And those stars will lead you back home. So don't be scared to fall,you will find your way back and maybe achive more than you could have imagined on the way"

Design/advertisement?

I would like you to do me a favour!

♥ If you have studied design/advertisement,please tell me, Im very interested to know more since Im applying to universities right now. Though I know that not alot of people study design.

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R.I.P + watchers feature!

Journal Entry: Thu Jan 1, 2009, 3:02 PM

You never think that its going to happen to you, until it hits you, until it really does happen to you! You hear about a death in your friends family, you get upset, but still you don’t think that its going to happen to you! You see it on the news, shows on TV, movies, you see people dying in hospitals, you see the expression of an old lady who knows that time is running out, you see a car crash, a storm, a war .. the list can go on forever!

Sometimes this subject is very hard to talk about, some people even believe that if we don’t talk about it, death is going to be far away and we are protected like this. Some people close their eyes to this, without thinking straight, its just to hard to talk about and to think about..

I lost a friend a couple of days ago and these days have been very hard for me, I’m sure you understand and I’m sure that a lot of you have experienced this. So please don’t ask what happened

I'm not writing this to get your sympathy and support, (even though I know that you are all great supportive people) I just want to tell you guys to please, and I repeat please spend time with people that you really love, don’t take it for granted. Because when someone close to us pass away, we feel awful, we are hurt and we decide that we are gong to enjoy life more, spend more time with people we love, but what happens after a couple of weeks? We forget, don’t we? I know I have .. and I don’t want to do that again!

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SO moooving on, 2009 is almost here!!

I want to wish you all a wonderful new year, Thank you so much for your support, I really appreciate all of you taking the time to watch my work! I haven't been keeping up here like I should and I know that I have a lot of journals, messages to catch up too and I will try to answer as soon as I can.

I hope you're all well and don’t forget that in life there are high and low moments but don’t ever give up on what you believe!

Update

Thank you all for your nice journal comments, it means a lot. Writing this was hard and i hope that I didn't upset you guys, i just want the best for you, i don't want you to realize things when its too late, like I did. Special thanks to my sweet friend Kathy =evile33 you are amazing! And congrats to cris `CrisVector on the deviousness award!

Once again, I wish you all a happy new year!!

Love/Sara

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“If I knew it would be the last time
I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would tape each word and action,
and play them back throughout my days.”

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Happy Birthday my love!

Journal Entry: Wed Dec 10, 2008, 12:28 AM

Happy Birthday!!

Today is the birthday of someone that i really care about, the love of my life. I wish that i could be with him today. Though there are miles between us now separating us, they all disappear when I think of his kind heart. Everything is harder than ever for us right now, but it won’t take away my love for him. I hope that someday, I can make his dreams come true! I hope that one day his hearth will overflow with joy, the way he deserves!

Happy birthday my love, I'm very proud of you!
I hope that you will always Shine bright!

The pictures that I'm featuring here represents love,hope,future, memories, beauty that i see in his eyes everyday..

All photographers, great work! Thank you for helping me to express my feeling with your lovely work!

Love

Missing you

Future

Everything beautiful in the world that i see in his eyes..

Memories

since this journal was accidentally deleted, I had to find the pictures that i featured again,but i didnt have too since Nima (

) knew the links and put together everything like before! I love you!

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Perfection!

Journal Entry: Tue Dec 9, 2008, 12:44 PM

I feel very disappointed,upset, sad right now! Today i was trying out a new design for my journal and after a couple of minutes i see very angry messages from a couple of my watchers, I look at my page and see that every time i was previewing my journal, a new journal was submitted! Has that ever happened to you?

I have no idea why and how, because that never happens! And then i saw that my previous journal was deleted somehow and that made me even more upset, it was a message to the one I love and i worked hard on it, and now, its gone! I am very upset that its gone but he knows how i feel about him and how important his birthday was to me, so I hope he doesn't get disappointed! He knows that he is my everything!

I will try and find all the pictures i featured here, because each and every one of the pictured helped me to express the way i feel for him, here's a couple of them, So i will update soonish

Thank you for all your support and the nice comments, I really appreciate it! You are all very talented and great people! I will see you around! Have a good day!

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A couple of days ago i read an amazing poem, and every word described the way i feel for him, so Im going to feature it here. This poem is written by Ben [link] , This poem was written to someone he really cares about and i can tell. He knows that im featuring it here so no worries! so if you really like the poem let him know! His work is very good and deserves to be seen!

I know that this journal is not as special as my previous journal but i want to make it up to him somehow! I hope you like the poem!

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Perfection

I see you and the haze rises; the world fades away and your image burns into me.
I hold you in my arms and the world fades away and we are all that’s left.
Your warm embrace,
Your tender touch,

Your breath rolls over me as you reach your arms into my jacket and hold me tight. The world fades away and nothing can harm us, nothing can touch us, nothing can see us. I hold you tighter as the light shapes its way around us and molds us together in the shape of a heart.

I hold you closer and the world fades away.

You are the beauty that keeps me going,
You are the glory that keeps me on track,
You are the light that burns away the darkness,
You are the darkness that hides me from the light.

I’m driven every day by the force and the rush that I get when I hear those words, those words which stop my heart.
Those words which feed my soul,
The sweet and jovial sound,

The heavenly cry… the angelic chorus.
Every utterance of those words to me from you is a reflection of the perfection, and the heaven, we have created for one another.

Those words which can kill me,
Those words which bring me to life,
Those words which can heal me,
Those words which cause me to writhe.

Your lips move gently as they awaken things inside me I thought was dead. The words come out, flowing straight into my lungs, my breathing stops and my heart is content. Those words which storm over me eagerly like a wave and warm me as though they were light, those perfect words…

I love you

I entered into a world that hated me, I smiled,
A world that cherished me, I smiled,
A world that hurt me, I smiled,
A world that killed me, I smiled,
No matter where I enter, you waited for me to return.

The world can’t be trusted and neither can the people in it, the scorn of life and despair of people have given me a bitter view. No matter how nice I am things happen for the worst; no matter how hard I try I can’t stop the voices of the ones hating me.

Nothing stays consistent except for you being there for me, it has become something I can trust and something I can divulge in; something that stays there like the stars to the sky. You provide me with this which I ask of you, and so much more I could never ask for.

I love you,
I love you… so very much.